what if???

i don't working at sub-ct, i prefer work at pcc
i hate hospital's doctor, they never gave me good news
what if i have no tomorrow?
what if i have to suffer?
what will happen?
will it be the same when im gone?
will someone out there miss me?
maybe not
maybe people will forgot about me
why i'm saying this because... nvm
someone once told me everything happen because of a reason
some times i wonder how can i still smile when i always feel the pain inside
maybe i just dun want show...
maybe...
and there are time that i dun care bout my self
well i just want to see u smile. that alone make me feel better